Ici une poesie que je vachement aime. Elle a ete ecrit par Jacques Prevert. La raison que j’ecris en francais est parce que je connait que je suce, et j’ai besoin de la pratique… Oh, j’ai commence mes papiers pour l’application d’universitee aujoud’hui. Mais… actuellement, ils ne sont pas tres bien. Meh.

Je suis comme je suis
Par Jacques Prevert

Je suis comme je suis
Je suis faite comme ça
Quand j’ai envie de rire
Oui je ris aux éclats
J’aime celui qui m’aime
Est-ce ma faute à moi
Si ce n’est pas le même
Que j’aime à chaque fois
Je suis comme je suis
Je suis faite comme ça
Que voulez-vous de plus
Que voulez-vous de moi

Je suis faite pour plaire
Et n’y puis rien changer
Mes talons sont trop hauts
Ma taille trop cambrée
Mes seins beaucoup trop durs
Et mes yeux trop cernés
Et puis après
Qu’est-ce que ça peut vous faire
Je suis comme je suis
Je plais à qui je plais
Qu’est-ce que ça peut vous faire
Ce qui m’est arrivé
Oui j’ai aimé quelqu’un
Oui quelqu’un m’a aimée
Comme les enfants qui s’aiment
Simplement savent aimer
Aimer aimer…
Pourquoi me questionner
Je suis là pour vous plaire
Et n’y puis rien changer.

so i don’t really know what i’m gonna talk about… i just sorta feel like writing. so… let’s see here. i’ve actually sorta been caught up in general nostalgia lately – just remembering all those good times i’ve had. so this is basically what i’ve been thinking of. so nostalgia:

in 1st and 2nd grade my best friend was brad who i haven’t seen or talked to since 2nd grade. robert the devil who just called my house randomly (i have no clue how he got my number) and tried to sell me random crap and didn’t leave me alone for a couple months. 5th grade we had a class camping trip – colin fell off his top bunk and somebody sleep walked (slept walked?). random fads in elementary school: jump roping, yo-yo’s, “speedball.” me and lawrence always almost killing each other. he broke my ddr dance pads. we played time splitters a lot. i used to love dragonball z. our really incredibly nazi-ish school that banned everything from pokemon cards to tomagochis and i even think yo-yo’s at some point. that heavy-metal student concert thing in santa fe. learning to golf. skinny dipping in the hot springs. lots and lots of random memories actually.

i’ve been watching .hack// series a lot. right now i’m watching .hack//roots. it’s actually kind of interesting and i like it.

i started reading crime and punishment. i rather like it.

today’s gonna be my first day of yoga!!

there’s a shins concert and jordan has an extra ticket but i might not be able to go cuz of my parents

so i had meant to write something last night… but instead i just went to sleep early (at 10:30 which is indeed very early). i guess i’ll just write something now then.

dammit i don’t remember what i was going to write about. well last night i was feeling sorta down. actually i’ve been feeling depressed a lot lately, and i don’t really know why. for no reason really i think. just generally depressed. school is just going so slowly (it’s been exactly 3 weeks today) and summer felt like it was forever ago. i mean it’s just been really slow. college apps are being started. teacher recommendations, one of the teachers i was going to ask got breast cancer she hasn’t replied to my request. maybe i should ask lathrop?

like i said, i’m just been generally down recently. just kinda in this slump and it’s kinda hard to get out of. i miss everybody who went off to college. i wish i could keep in touch with them more than i do. well ok… paco brought up the fact that i txt bryce pretty much everyday… and usually all throughout the day… but that’s one case. i miss all of them.

oooh… ipod touch… yes! apple is amazing! the new nano is so cool. and the classic with 160 gb?! omg. i think i’m splurging my paychecks. calvin and i have our touches preordered.

books reading: oedipus rex, doll’s house, crime and punishment, sophie’s world
tv series-in-progress watching: scrubs, bleach, psych, monk
music: itunes is on party shuffle. crazy things appear. it’s nice though.
recent movies: balls of fury, waking life, elephant

other stuff: nothing really. i’ve just sorta been cruising through life. i had a couple emotional crises recently. but i’ve gotten through the worst of them… well it’s awesome that i’m still in contact with me college buds (particularly bryce but others as well). it makes me happy, y’know… with emotional crises and the world falling apart.