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Prom, and then I Ride! May 3, 2007

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My friends, I am an idiot! You know what I have just signed up for? A one hundred mile bike ride, the morning after prom! I have no idea why the hell I’m doing this, but hey, It’ll be fun! I get to go to prom, have fun, leave a little earlier then the others, and then wake up bright and early, and go to Santa Fe by 6:30 with my twenty year old road bike, and bike a hundred miles. I have got to be totally nuts!

Misunderstanding April 16, 2007

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Its interesting how different people are able to interpret words in so many different ways. Let us take, for example, a random phrase,  “Let’s go party”. Now this, depending on what the listener thinks of the individual, can be viewed in so many ways. If you think this guy goes and gets drunk, you think he means to go with a few kegs, and drink. If you think of him as a cuckolding young man, you think he will go and find some girls. If you think he’s an idiot, you think of walking around, dumb jokes, ect. However, what happens if this guy is none of these things and you have turned him down? You’ve just missed the most awesome party in world.

A Curse March 29, 2007

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I, the entity known as Nukes, hereby curse a variety of adults. I do not curse adults in general, for to do so, would condemn innumerable worthy individuals who have much to share and teach. No, I condemn those adults who would take our childhood from us before we are ready, or need to leave it. I curse those who would wish to rush us into a world of harsh realities, a world of labor, a world of worries, a world without care freeness. I curse those who would have us work for them in the same manner, if not more then they would have from adults. We have so much to learn before we go into the world by ourselves, we just don’t have time to place the work they give us in the highest of priorities. I curse those who are taking control of the lives of my friends. I curse these people for what they have done, and will do to young men and old boys who are hardworking, thoughtful, intelligent, and meant for great things. I curse you who take advantage of their gentle hearts, I curse you who would lock these boys into cubicles, I curse you who would chain the imagination and creativity of our youth.

Happy Birthday Calvin March 10, 2007

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Now I probably have the day wrong, and your birthday is tomorrow, but by tomorrow I will have forgotten to do this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Love, and other wierd adolescent conclusions March 6, 2007

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To love, or not to love. To love one, or to love many. To be loved, or to be seen. To belong, or not to belong. These are question that have been prosecuting me for about a year, ever since I first had a girlfriend. I have finally come to answer most of these. The answer to the first is probably what most would choose: to love. Life would be lonely without love. This would then lead to then next question: to love one or many. I confess, I love almost every person I know. I love the girl who sits next to me in class. I love the kids I swim with, I love the guys I hang out with , I love my teachers, I love my family, I love the guy hates me. I would give my life for anyone I know. I see something worth loving in everyone. Why should I have to prioritize, place one person over everyone else? Why should I do that, when satisfaction comes more from loving everyone? I believe, that later in life, I probably will find someone that will convince me otherwise, but now, in a time when it is near impossible to keep such relation, I decide to love everyone. Now comes the choice of being loved, or being seen. Most people dont love everyone as I do. They notice them. They evaluate them, and they befriend them. It would be irrational for me to expect everyone to love me back, so i choose to simply be noticed, so that I can be called upon to help, without being an obligation to others. As with every other human being, I want to belong. To not belong is to be alone, and we just aren’t, on average, equipped to do that.

Being left Behind February 15, 2007

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Life is always so full of choices, and moments. It feels terrible to miss out on either. I know the I cry for every moment I miss with my friends, every time I can’t go with them, every time I’m not around. I cry for every choice I am unable to make, I cry for every choice I have to make. I cry for everything I miss, even at the lowly age of 16, I can already feel them weight of the may have beens. Its a terrible feeling to be left out. One feels left out, even when there is no intention of leaving out. I’m simply rambling around right now. Moral of the story, I’m sad, and feel left out by my friends, when they have no intention of causing this. Feelings are so illogical, it hurts.

How School Ruins its students February 10, 2007

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Our current school system does not truly teach knowledge, or the use of knowledge. All it does, is teach how to conform. To succeed in school, all you have to do is do exactly as told. One does not have to be smart to get a 5.0. All you have to do is be respectful to the teachers, do exactly as you are told, and nothing else. You also learn to rush things, and to do the minimum effort. If you try to do more then is required, you are downgraded for it. If you have an original idea, you are downgraded. If you have a different idea, you are downgraded. If you try to do something truly well, and put all of your effort into truly learning the subject of study, you are downgraded. A smart person, is unable to succeed in this system. Our education is being destroyed. Education is supposed to foster knowledge, not impede it. Naturally, education differs from teaecher to teacher, and occasionally, you are able to get a wonderful teacher. This, unfortunatly, is extremly unlikely, and so far, I have only had three such teachers.

Afraid February 6, 2007

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I am so afraid. I lie awake at night thinking, “What is it going to be like in a year?” and i get this sinking feeling in my stomach, i feel my chest clench, and I have finally discovered what it is, it is raw terror. I’ve never been afraid. Never. I can think of situations where i should have been, but I have never been truly afraid. Only when I lie awake at night, thinking of the future. I am terrified of what is to come. I am terrified of death, so much so that the mere thought in that direction keeps me awake for hours. I am terrified of life, yet I’m terrified of losing it. Its weird, but it makes a creepy kind of sense. I’m afraid to lose the only thing I know, but I’m still afraid of it. It is almost as if my mind is unable to truly cope with the concept of time, true time. Not the passive time of waiting. Time as in the future, or truly thinking of those who have come before me. I’m so damned scared. Is life any different? I wonder if it is, I hope it is. I mean, would parents and other adults be able to function as they do with this constant terror? Or do they simply become numb to it? I hope its a teenage thing, or even better, just a me thing, for I would not wish this upon another. I’m so damned scared.

Sports January 9, 2007

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All my life, I have been involved in one sport or another. It seems as if my whole first 16 years of life have been dedicated to either soccer, sailing, hiking, or swimming. Of all of these, the most fun, is soccer, the most enjoyable, is hiking, the most exhilarating, is sailing, and the hardest, swimming.

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Friends December 3, 2006

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What is a friend? A friend is someone who will help you when you need help. A friend will stick with you through the good times, and the bad times. A friend will tell you when you are doing something wrong. A friend will tell you when you are doing something right. A friend will not make fun of you for your mistakes. A friend will not joke around of that which they don’t really understand. A friend will laugh with you. A friend will pop your balloon of pride. A friend will keep your feet on the Earth. A friend will take you soaring across the sky. A friend never makes you feel miserable, never makes you feel dejected, never makes you feel embarrassed, never makes you wish to find a corner and read, never makes you wish to disappear, or jump at them to shut them up. A friend teaches you what you don’t know. A friend is tolerant of your faults.